Mixed with
Irrational dreams:
Hallucinatory
And as shackling,
As sleep paralysis.
Apparently,
The anxiety
The depression
The self-induced
Inferiority
Required a new friend.
So today,
I will NOT
Be suitable
For human interaction.
I will close
My office door.
I will scowl
At intruders.
I will double
My coffee intake.
I will not return
Calls or texts.
I will bite my
Xanax in half.
I will swallow
Both pieces.
I will cry again
And again
And again.
Because
I am broken.
Again.
Pink Starburst Anxiety 
i’m surprise you can control yourself..if I had xanax I’d take 2 and say fuck it… its better to be numb to the world than to hurt constantly…
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I feel ya—I rely on Xanax for any attack, sometimes twice a day but I’ve dealt with a terrible withdrawal last year from my Paxil—so pills in general make me uneasy.
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I cannot take paxil… it makes me violently ill
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I’ve never been ill from meds, only when withdrawal.
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been there too. have u ever had brain zaps?
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Oh yes! But only during my withdrawal. That was the worst! I’m still meaning to go get an MRI, just for reassurance. Damn tension headaches continue to make my anxious mind dread the unlikeliest of possibilities. But better safe than sorry.
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Ah, I’ve felt this way too. Not fun. Here are some natural options for when insomnia hits if you are interested: https://botanicalalchemyandapothecary.com/sleep-help
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